I have rewritten this about me section three times since I started this blog in October of 2010. I never know exactly what to say about myself since I am have very poor self esteem. I just had my 29 birthday a week ago and I don’t really have a five year plan. The best case scenario is me attending graduate school and hopefully completing a PhD in psychology, with my field of interest being clinical. I have always had a strange gift of being able to talk to people, even though, I think I am crazy myself, but it takes a nut to know a nut in my book.
All my life I have struggled with body image issues and this blog originally started as a place where I could talk about my anorexia and bulimia. Eating disorders have never been considered an issue in males but honestly speaking there is just as much judgment levied on males for being fat as females. Since July of last year I have worked steadily at really shrinking down into my ideal BMI body but its been so much work. I switched to running 15 miles a week and I was making steady progress and lost nearly 40 pounds to date. Today after someone took my picture and I hate pictures honestly speaking, I cringed as I was shown my face staring back at me. I stared deeply into the photograph and for a second a thought it was someone else. You really cannot judge your own progress when you look at just your face in the mirror every morning when you shave. We all know what good looking people look like and the picture looked like something you would find in modeling magazine. I am not trying to sound conceited here in the least bit but that guy with my name on it, had perfect facial symmetry, almond shaped eyes, cheek bones, and tear dropped shaped head. When I think about what I look like my first thought is an ugly troll who has not had a girlfriend in ages.
I have made a career of going to the university and have studied a variety of subjects but my bachelors degree is in psychology. I have a keen interest in American literature and I read all of Hemingway’s 27 books. I find that reading is one of the most important things in the world and everyone should be well read. I have a list of about 50 books to read currently and I think I am in love with Sylvia Plath. Along those lines I find Lizzie Bennett to be one of my favorite character of all time. I have been fascinated with the evolution of our own species and this economy which seems to display how our minds work, what survival of the fittest really means. I have never been interested in politics in my whole life, tell the politics of government started making my life miserable. The economy dried up and so did my search for middle-class work.
If you have any questions about me or just want to say hello, please feel completely free to do so since I am kind of bored all the time. I honestly would not know how to describe myself to someone on the street because I am rather strange, nerdy, a gym rat, and a professional student.